Potential

I’m scared to death that I won’t live up to my potential, or at least, what I feel is my potential, that I will fail to become the person I feel I can and should be.

Too many songs left unsung.

I go to work, like just about everybody else.  I have a 9-5, and I try hard, I work hard there.  There’s certainly a ladder to climb there, and I do try to climb it.  I have a family after all, I want to provide for them the best I can.  The thing is that I’ve spent a lot of time and energy climbing that ladder, and am realizing that I’m not living up to my potential.  I’m not living with passion, or for my passion.  Each rung of this ladder is is hardly a step towards where I want to be.  This entire ladder barely amounts to a single step of where I want to be.

We have real potential, potential that we sometimes can’t even see, but we feel it.  We feel it when we’re unfulfilled at our jobs.  We start to put so much energy into this thing that is not our passion, that we start living with no passion at all.  We feel that we’re not living up to our potential, even if we can’t directly see it.

Knowing that we want to live with passion and purpose, why do we spend so much time on things that are so fleeting?  Why do we spend so much energy on things that are inconsequential, and superficial?  I know we see the error, the strangeness, in our ways, but why do we continue down this path that ultimately leads us to a mediocre life?